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Middle School Life Crisis
I went about my daily life a bit heart broken over my loss of friendship but I still longed for a friend. At the end of fourth grade I began to enter a dark time for me as far as friendships go I became a friendship slut. I had best friends for a week then dumped them or vice versa and this seemed to go on till about 7th grade. From Kathy to Stephanie to Laura to Lenora to Cheryl to Lori then In 6th Grade the sloppy friendship with Jenny that got me in trouble with my parents was about to begin.

Out on the playground in middle school just breaking up another friendship was routine at this point for me whether my own or someone elses. Best friendless I started hanging out with Jenny and her best friend Lynn. I had no real interest in being Lynns friend and sooner than later I managed to get my claws into Jenny and pull her away from Lynn and sure enough Jenny dumped Lynn for me. It was heartless but this is the way of life for our kind. The search for the newer better more reliable friend. Perhaps it´s our consumer mentality that makes us this way. I was always shopping for a great friend deal. The perfect package with no down payment or high interest charges and could be returned at anytime with no questions asked.

So for the rest of 6th grade through part of 7th Jenny and I were inseperable. We had tons of sleep overs, went to the mall together, shared secrets,we snuck around together, we got in trouble together and we even helped eachother try on tampons. We were like total B.F.F´s. Or atleast till that new bargain of a friendship deal was to be found.

We did the whole middle school drama thing pretty well and went through a lot together, but by 7th grade Jenny had a new boyfriend Tyler,who was my new friend and I also began hanging out with this new friend product known as Christina. I was growing bored of Jenny and her lack of wanting to take part in gags that Christina was totally willing to take part in which made Christina all that more appealing to me.

Clean up on isle seven, it ended pretty sloppy with Jenny. It started to unravel when her boyfriend at that time was telling me that he liked me and wished that he could go out with me. This completely freaked me out and even though I was bored of Jenny I was totally loyal. The biggest friend law we have is never to mess around with the same boy. He was off limits in my mind.

He proceeded to break up with Jenny and came after me with even greater effort. Chasing me through the library and halls grabbing my arm as I tried to get my books out of my locker to go home. He wanted us to talk and work things out and I just couldnt deal with the drama and that friendship was over. As was Jenny. She grew jealous of Christina and confronted me on it. She began to hang out with a new friend and soon enough our friendship faded.

The Bobo Head Years
Wounds heal fast when you have a new best friend for life lined up. Christina and I are were free of all the tangles of a 3 way friendship and were officially best friends now. Except come 8th grade we were almost over when I moved after my parents had been divorced in 7th grade.

Christina however proved to be special and for the first time even though I moved the friendship didn´t fade. I moved around alot and through out all the moving even to different states we mantained a close bond that was really unnatural. Her mom and even my mom thought we were not healthy continuing with our long distance friendship even calling us gay. Her mom tried to break it up by not letting Christina see me, but we managed to get around that, we were pro's by now in sneaking around.

We shared lots of firsts together, first jobs, first parties, first dance club nights, and first times sneaking out to nyc together. We had so many times spent just wasting time. Like reading poetry on the toilet to eachother, or driving to the shore and sleeping in her old junky car for no reason, which was so uncomfortable. We made art together, We video taped us goofing off. We covered for eachother supported eachother and had super retard fun times together and we even had dumb nick names for eachother one being the classic Bobo head taken from the chinese take out joint we worked in. Bobo was what the chinese men called the Pupu platter. Strange to have two totally silly words and really need to translate one to the other. We liked the Bobo one and it stuck.We stayed Bobo heads well throughout highschool.

Then we graduated highschool. We were like hopeless romantics trying to hold on to that utopian time of adolesence of doing everything together. So we went to the same art school together. It was an idealistic dream we held on to even though there was an unspoken distance that was settling in and would do so over a slow fade out in the next few years.

I was going through a bad break up with high school boyfriend and she was happy still going out with hers. I felt totally isolated in colleged and totally lost. Even though we were roomates we were hardly ever together. One of my nicest memories back then was taking naps together during breaks between classes. It was comforting but only lasted an hour or two at each time.

For the most part now I felt like living with her was tearing us apart. We were living literally on top of eachother in a tiny room with bunk beds. I guess the romance of our long distance friendship was over. We hardly shared things like we used to. It would be some time before we found that connection that we originally shared again. So in the mean time I began to hunt for filler friends.

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